So...It's definitely been a while huh? What can i say? Well i guess people really haven't heard about my New York trip. That was much fun for New Years. We didn't get to see any broadway shows. Kinda bummed about that, but there's always next time right? So I think the issue I am facing currently is the "what am i gonna do?" phase. I'm really considering trying to find an internship in New York for a year or so. I love the city life there, and i can definitely hang with the subway system, the dirtiness of the city, and the cheap watches in china town off of Canal St. The only problem i'd have would be if the internship is not a paid internship, how am i gonna pay for living? Do i have to find another job? That might be really tough for me. and plus like, how am i gonna be able to afford a place in NY? even if i am working!? I'll be living off of white castle hamburgers! I really haven't experienced New York in the summer, but i really like New York during the winter. Central Park was sooooooo beautiful. You can check out my pics from NY on my website link. I guess sometimes i feel like i wish i was just done with school. I wish i had just a fun stable job, a house, and an awesome wife, but i'm sure once i get to that point...if i ever do, i'm probably gonna be wishing that i was in school, and not having to work everyday. It's funny because i was asked to lead the Jr Higher's at church last nite. It was their gym nite so i came up with a couple games right on the spot. They were games that involved blindfolds and trusting other people to guide you. And so out of the two games the lesson was that God puts you in funny situations, sometimes they are hard, sometimes they're just weird, but we are blind to what His purpose is at the moment. We don't understand why this is happening, but down the line when more of this big painting ( our life) is revealed we will understand why. So it's funny that the lesson that God brought to me last nite for the Jr. Higher's wasn't just for the Jr. Higher's, but was also for me. We must trust God with where He's leading us, regardless of where it is. And we must be patient because we know that God is gonna bring us through and that He has the best for us. So it's just nice to learn something when you weren't expecting it. So another thing i've been pondering is how do you know when you're ready for a relationship? Is it a definite thing that you're suppose to look for? If God is not telling you "No" does that mean it's ok? It's scary to think about too, because i'm now at the age where the next person i date, is not gonna be just some fun dating fling, but it's going to be a courtship. The relationship has a purpose of seeing is this the one? Are you the person i'm going to spend the rest of my life with? Kind of exciting and kind of scary, but it is so cool when you find someone that loves the Lord so much, that challenges you in your walk, that supports you in the things you do...you start seeing things you want in the person you spend the rest of your life with. Taking things that you've learned from friends and past relationships. What worked, what didn't. What were things you liked and didn't like. I might of just found a keeper =) , but as God has been teaching, I must remain patient with His plans for my life and most of all...keep focus on the Lord. Check out the new question.